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Sunday, 26 April 2009

Currently
Carolina
By Eric Church
Love your love the most
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Back on track

I haven't updated in forever. I've just been so busy with school..but this week is my last week then summer! woot woot.
My whole eating healthy was going good for awhile and then i like relapsed..now I'm up to 137. someone kill me now! tomorrow i'm hittin it hard. it really helps too that there is like barely any food in this house..we havent gone grocery shoppin in two weeks but i always seem to find something to shove in my face. i just need to lose 10 flippin pounds at the least..
i saw lindsay lohan on tv the other day and omg! she lost so much weight. i'm so jealous of people that have that kind of control. i feel like i need a babysitter to tell me "no..you can't eat that". my self control is non existant.
anyone got any good tips or words of wisdom to help get me back on my feet and on track? i would really appreciate it.

Saturday, 21 February 2009

Is it sad that I want the weekend to be over with already? I'm stressed and just wanna get my exams over with. I also have been eating shitty these past 2 days. I do a heck of a lot better eating during the week..actually I do amazing eating during the week..and then the weekend rolls around and all that hard work goes down the drain. So frustrating! I didn't weigh myself yesterday or this morning. I'm afraid to. It also doesn't help that I'm on my period right now. yuck. I'm gettin ready to go run a few miles and do some pilates...gotta get motivated. I've been sitting here all morning watching tv and studying...It's been snowing hardcore since earlier this afternoon. This whole snow thing is gettin real incredibly old. I'm ready for spring!

Thursday, 19 February 2009

the wind sounds angry but my coat is kind.

b: yogurt & clementine
l: clementine & special k bar
d: tbd
s: yogurt, banana & orange juice

not too bad. i only had time to run 3 miles this morning..and i had kickboxing class today but it wasn't too intense..we just did workouts with the big workout balls. it was still good sculpting stuff though. so glad it is finally the weekend. it was a long week. my new med that my psychiatrist added is really making me super sleepy. i feel asleep in class on and off all week..not good! and i've never yawned so much in one day in my life. i'm hoping these symptoms go away. my dad said that they should..he's a psychologist so he kinda knows his stuff. so i believe him. if they don't go away my butt is marchin back to the doc's to get the med changed. i'm debating whether or not i want to take a nap which is soundin real good right now, or go run a few more miles, which i should do since i'm 2 short for the day. but i know i don't have classes tomorrow and i could totally make up for the lost miles..i'm really good at making that stuff up. my weight has been staying at 130...which I am ok with. It was 129 one day and I was so stoked. But I'll take 130 over 140 any day. I haven't gone tanning in 2 days...I'm still kinda itchy from it. It doesn't help that my skin was already dry to begin with. Damn winter. Dry skin an staticky hair. I hate it! I've got 3 tests next week which I should get studying for too. It's kind of a big deal that I pass them. ha. I'm sure I'll do just fine. Things are still progressing with my boyfriend so that helps things out a bit too. We're gettin back to how we use to be and I love it. I knew everything would get better with time...and I knew that once I got my problems sorted out that wouldn't put such a damper on everything.

Monday, 16 February 2009

you want to be dressed in poetry but imagery doesn't fit...

Not too excited that it's Monday already. The weekend went by too dang fast. Yesterday we ended up eating dinner at 2:30..so actually I guess it would be considered lunch then. lol But in that case...I didn't eat dinner then. In fact, I didn't even have a snack after that the rest of the day/night. I actually wasn't hungry which is surprising. I weighed myself this morning when I woke up...129.4!!!! Ahhh I was about ready to fall off the scale. I was so excited! My small GW is 125. So if I'm lucky and work hard by the end of the week I could be there. My new medication made me a little nauseated again yesterday but I can deal..it makes me not want to eat cause I feel like throwing up. As much as I would love to not eat this morning I have to..:-/ There's no way that I can run 5 miles like this. I'm pretty sure I'd pass out. I need some kind of fuel. But I'll run off the few calories anyways so it's no biggy.
No tests this week thank god. Last week I had 2 exams. I ended up with a 96 on spanish and a 70 on my child psyc. Not too bad..but I woulda liked to have done better on the cp. oh well..I still have plenty of time to get that grade back up.
Happy Monday. ha.
Keep on with the keep on.

Sunday, 15 February 2009

Currently
Fearless
By Taylor Swift
"Forever and Always"
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But one thing is for sure..You are worth living for.

Valentine's Day turned out to be quite wonderful. My boyfriend picked out the perfect card. It totally fit for what we have been going through. The past 2 days with him have been going great! I am so glad that we sat down on Friday night and talked with my dad. (He's a psychologist) It's a little weird I know, but as I get older I get more and more comfortable talking to him about stuff and going to him for help. I can completely understand why his patients absolutely love him. He really helped my boyfriend and I realize stuff..before we talked to my dad my boyfriend told me that he thought we needed a break. Basically because of me...I've had all of my problems going on and he thought it would be better for me if we took a break..He thought that it would be one less thing that I would have to stress/think about. But after we had our "therapy session" lol he decided that, that wouldn't be the best thing. Ahh I just feel SO much better knowing that our relationship is back on track. There was no way I was going to throw away 2 amazing years with him because of my state of being. I've been working hard on getting better. My mom brought my new med home for me Friday and I started that. It kinda made me naeusiated yesterday but I know that feeling will go away eventually as time goes on. It could be because I didn't have a lot in my stomach either.
Yesterday I had a few peach rings that my mom got me for Valentine's Day, a bowl of cereal, and 2 pieces of toast. That is all I had all day..No dinner or anything. I was proud of myself...and I ran 6 miles yesterday. This morning I made eggs, had some toast, and a cup of hot chocolate. Not too bad..coulda did without the hot chocolate but it had a very reasonable amount of calories in it considering it's hot chocolate. Now I won't eat again till dinner...We're have steak and salad. That's pretty healthy..get my protein and vegetables.
My boyfriend and I went to the PBR last night (bull riding). It was awesome! I absolutely loved it. I'm glad I bought him those tickets for Valentine's Day. I would definitely go see it agian. There's just somethin about cowboys. That's such a dangerous and adrenaline rushing sport. The guys could barely walk when they fell off. They were all gimping away..But I imagine getting bucked around can't feel too damn good.
Still gotta go do my running for today but I'm gonna go finish watching "The Break Up" and study a little bit of anatomy and then head down to do my 5+ miles.
Hope everyone had a great Valentine's Day!
Keep working hard!